Sort of. We went to say goodbye to my childhood friend and my friends’ cousin. Who is on his way to New-Zealand and Thailand and Australia for about 8 months. So we raced to Schiphol Airport. Had lotsa fun and shed alot of tears.
“October 7, 2009
How fair is it to get your emotions controlled by a stranger?
A stranger that somehow has the password to all your thoughts and emotions.
And somehow you do not care if he sees it al, knows it all, tells it all.
You want to be as close as you can.
But when you see him standing in a crowd with someone else,
better brace yourself ’cause you know it’s gonna hurt.
You hope that he noticed that you’re staring at him,
but the way he looks over.. it’s like he looks through you.
And all was for nothing.. The cute smiles.. the simple “hello”‘s..
casually touching his hand, arm, leg, everything..
Looking for excuses to just look into his eyes for some seconds.
To manage to be on his mind for those seconds. Trying to burn yourself on his brain.
Hoping he wont forget your smile from the first time you met. Or that he likes your skirt.
“April 27, 2010I can’t seem to understand how the mind works. Either the mind of a man, nor the mind of a woman. Or a child. Or a grown up. Minds. Don’t seem to feel the touch of your fingers across my skin. Can’t feel the words you throw at me. You never could explain it to me. How your mind works while I tried to figure it out. You are very difficult for me to read. Why? Cause there was nothing to read. True things are readable, lies are like blackholes in the galaxy. Hiding the good. Throwin out the bad. Don’t we all just have to pierce things together, watch and travel to see where we end up after the healing process? Give me my escape, you’re hunting me down like a dog.”
I feel like reuploading some of my old post that I’ve written on my previous blog. Just cause they still mean alot to me and reflect everything I felt at that moment.
Today, I love my wobbly photos of people moving.
Well tomorrow I’ll be joining my friend at this convention or something. She wanted me to tag along and I agreed on it. I’ll make some photos of our journey and all. I’ll post the photos soon C:
Photo’s I made while I was taking a walk in the forest behind my house..
New bracelet I bought, it was pretty cheap but I still love it.
My ideal moment to come to myself. Balcony, cigarette and Parkway Drive in my ears.